I had no idea what the creature was…but he was a cross between a butterfly, a dragonfly, a bird, a moth and a fairy. I watched him noisily flutter and knock against the glass caught between repulsion and wonder. He was huge. He was beautiful. His lime green wings had an intricate eye pattern much like a peacock feather. He was larger than a humming-bird, and obviously not a bird although that is what I mistook him as until I got a closer look. What was this creature that I had never seen before? I watched him for several moments…even called my youngest child in from her bedroom to look as well… and then worried for him because I did not want him to injure himself against the glass, I shut my curtains to deter him from the light.
Yesterday was a joyful day…and I did not put much thought into the visitor I had the night before. My mind was full of things to do to get ready for the house closing that would occur at 3pm. Yesterday was a much awaited day for me, my husband and the precious woman who has become my dear friend…the seller of the house that we were to buy.
At best, house buying post-the housing collapse several years ago is tedious. Add to that equation a host of other road blocks and set-backs and securing a mortgage is a circus performance…jumping through hoops…some which are tiny, some fiery… Jumping over , limbo-ing under…it has been one of the most stressful experiences.
But there was a reason.
In the past 9 months I have grown up.
When my family moved into our current home, I lucked into a friendship that has become a blessing…and I inherited three brother kittens from the home owner. She had found homes for the other kittens, but could not keep the three that were left because the mother cat was mean to them…and her husband did not want a house full of cats. Would I keep them? Could I keep them? Of course! Why not?! I already had four cats, a dog and a revolving door of kids. It was a pleasure.
These kittens were special to my owner/seller/friend. She had been present when they were born. In fact, the momma cat had a hard time in labor and my friend had acted as mid-wife and had assisted in the birthing. My friend does not have children of her own, but she has been present for the birth of more than a litter of kittens…she has been present and guiding and laboring with me as I have come from a place of closed protection and frozen fear to emerge…to a transformation.
The seller of my home never doubted that my family was supposed to be here. She knew that her special house on a hill surrounded by trees would be a home and a haven to us. She had prayed for God to send her just the right family at just the right time and that the house would sell for just the right price. God is good and He answered her prayers! And ours…the only detail left out was the closing date. It was supposed to be before the end of the year…the last of December…after Christmas. But instead it is the Springtime…after Easter…before Pentecost. Easter is the celebration of Life over Death…of Rebirth. And Pentecost marks the end of the Easter season and celebrates the coming of the Holy Spirit “When the day of Pentecost came, they were all together in one place. Suddenly a sound like the blowing of a violent wind came from heaven and filled the whole house where they were sitting.” Acts 2:1,2
And Acts 2:38- 47 “Peter replied, ‘Repent and be baptized, every one of you, in the name of Jesus Christ for the forgiveness of your sins. And you will receive the gift of the Holy Spirit. The promise is for you and your children and for all who are far off—for all whom the Lord our God will call.’
With many other words he warned them; and he pleaded with them, ‘Save yourselves from this corrupt generation.’ Those who accepted his message were baptized, and about three thousand were added to their number that day.
The Fellowship of the Believers
They devoted themselves to the apostles’ teaching and to fellowship, to the breaking of bread and to prayer. Everyone was filled with awe at the many wonders and signs performed by the apostles. All the believers were together and had everything in common. They sold property and possessions to give to anyone who had need. Every day they continued to meet together in the temple courts. They broke bread in their homes and ate together with glad and sincere hearts, praising God and enjoying the favor of all the people. And the Lord added to their number daily those who were being saved.”
At the house closing, while sitting in the attorney’s office signing papers with my friend and seller it occurred to me to share with her that I had a visitor at my window. She was thrilled! Apparently the creature was a luna moth…and luna moths are symbols of spiritual transformation.
Luna moths also signify rebirth and new beginnings! They represent a continuing quest for truth and knowledge. And all moths seek out light. That is what I have been doing!!!!
I looked up Luna Moths after my friend told me that her animal book said, “DREAM BIG NOW knowing this is your time for TRANSFORMATION and celebrate by Dancing for Joy!” And she added, “Awesome blessing from the spirit realm”.
Anyone who knows me, or has read my blog understands that I believe in signs. I believe in prayer. I believe in God’s constant presence and blessing. I asked God to anoint this property that it would be a place of love and light and laughter…that would attract people to come and experience friendship and fellowship. I planted things in the soil and I have been overjoyed as I watch them take root and grow. I have taken off my shoes and walked around the property…the entire perimeter and claimed this spot as a home for me and my family. I didn’t just say, “God…whatever.” I said, “God!!!! Hear me!!!! See me!!!! Look at my heart and know that I do not want this home for selfish reasons. I want this home because it is a HUGE DEAL for me …and I can not do it without your intervention. You have brought me to this place and surrounded me with people where I am learning about You! and I am learning about me! THANK YOU for everything that You have done and that You are doing and that You will do. I KNOW that You will give me the desire of my heart…not for my glory, but for Your Glory because You have made this possible! Thank YOU!!!!”
And God did work it out. He has been working it out all along. And the moth was a sign.
A symbol of transformation from caterpillar to cocoon to moth.
Here are some quotes that I found:
“According to Animal Symbolism of the Moth the moth represents determination and faith. Each night it follows the moonlight; in the absence of moonlight, it will seek man-made light. ‘Even at the risk of losing its life, the moth is ever-vigilant in following its path of light.'”
“The Luna Moth represents intuition, heightened awareness and knowledge of the other world. Some think they embody the soul of a loved one.”
“The moth expresses some tender vulnerabilities…Indeed, we find this theme of protection in the moth’s chrysalis. Unlike the butterfly (with whom the moth shares many symbolic attributes), the moth’s cocoon is like an internalized womb with a hard casing, allowing more protection against the elements. (the butterfly has an externalized womb, more exposed and subjective to the environment). This may be analogous of garnering protection for ourselves in our spiritual practices. The moth reminds us to have a willing heart in our spiritual growth, but realize the heart is a treasure to be taken care of. Part of this caretaking involves nurturing and protection during times of development.”
“Philosophically speaking, night creatures do not tumble in the dark, and neither do humans. We use our dreams, our awareness, and our deeper, inner knowing to navigate through the darkest hours of our lives. Faith is another tool we use to move through shadowy times of uncertainty, and the moth also shares this aspect. The moth never questions provision. She has complete faith that all of her needs will be met each night.”
WOW! Right? Never question provision….complete faith that all of her needs will be met…THANK YOU GOD!!!!!!!!!
A Quick-List of Symbolic Moth Meanings
“We see a fragile vulnerability in the moth. The moon is her mother and she will follow her course at all cost. This makes her open to distraction, vulnerable to harm. Here we may find another message to adjust our course as our path indicates rather than drive forward without heeding important signs along the way.”
“However, with higher perception we sometimes overstep into the realm of confusion. It is important to seat ourselves in grounding foundations… In other words, fly high with the moth – but always have a clear runway for happy, safe landings.”
I am seating myself in the only true and lasting foundation…the Rock…the Word.
HAPPY, SAFE landings Indeed. Thank You, God. Amen and Amen.