The other night I had an “otherworldly” visitor. It showed itself to me at my bedroom window on the night before I bought my new home (notice I said “home” and not house? Years ago I bought an old painted door at a church auction for $40 that read, “A house is made of wood and beams, but a home is made of love and dreams.” I left that door hanging at my old house.)
I have been noticing things lately…or things have been too obvious to ignore. After the Luna Moth messenger of good tidings, I have been aware that there are A LOT of rabbits in my yard and around my house…so taking a cue from my friend who told me that there is symbolism attached to animals, I looked up what a rabbit around might mean. According to Ina Woolcott:
“Rabbits are guides into the shadow world, where our personal fears lie. When the rabbit shows up it is time to examine those deep reflexive fears that hold you back from growing. Do you keep bounding for the safety of your old patterns every time something new or challenging presents itself? If the answer is yes, the rabbit asks you to face your fears with compassion for yourself. You must accept that it is part of human nature to feel fear at times, but also believe that our fears need not paralyze our growth and movement. ”
Hhhhhmmmmmm. That sounds like someone I know…really well. And it isn’t Alice in Wonderland. It is Christy in Lifeland…But the absolutely CRAZY thing is that I have been handed so many opportunities lately to get out of my same-old-same-old and stretch myself. But my tendency is to start something…or plan to start something…or think about starting something and then decide that I can’t because I don’t have time. Well, I do have time. I am just afraid. I am afraid to step out of my comfort zone. I am afraid to not be great at something. I am afraid that people will be disappointed in me or that I will be disappointed in myself…so I talk myself out of even trying. I wasn’t always like that.
When I was a kid I was the quintessential “Aries Ram”. I would plow head first into everything. My mother tells me that as soon as she put me in one of those now-known -to-be-deadly and probably no-longer-made baby walkers…that I was OFF! If you don’t know what I am talking about…imagine a bouncy seat with wheels. Baby feet can touch the ground so that baby toes can propel the contraption in any direction according to how baby swivels the seat. I don’t know how I lived past the age of 6 months based on the pictures of some of the places that I got myself into. My point is…I wasn’t always afraid. I used to believe in myself…possibly to the point of over-confidence…maybe even cockiness. I knew what I could do and that I could do it well. And then somehow I lost that.
Well, it is time to re-claim that I am made to DO. God does not make us to be frozen in fear…A quote that I like because I was a “baller”… and a shooting guard at that is “You have got to shoot, otherwise you can’t score.” Johan Cruijff.
And another sports analogy thought that I often have when I am watching soccer or football or basketball when it is OBVIOUS that the team is not trying to score…they are just trying to prevent the other team from scoring…it really doesn’t matter how great you play defense because if the score is zero- all then you still don’t win! In other words, DON”T stand back and wait for the action to come to …or at you! Don’t be constantly defending and protecting and hovering around one little space in fear! Go and get what you need! It is for anyone to take…so why should it not be you or me? Life’s opportunities are not like a real game…there isn’t just one ball…there are more than enough for all of us! But we have to go and get it. I have always been the type that if I am going to play then I am NOT going to lose or tie. I will kill myself to win. But to win…I have to play.
I was walking yesterday at dusk…singing a song that goes ” Come like you promised. I am desperate to see your face. Show me your glory. I need your presence every day… I will lift the name of Jesus high. I will live my life for Him. There is none who’s loved me greater. Come Holy Spirit. Walk beside me unveil my eyes. Show me Your power. O search my heart now and bring new life. I will lift the name of Jesus high. I will live my life for Him. There is none who’s loved me greater. Sing! Let it ring. For the glory of the King. Sing! Let it ring. “( Place of Freedom CD)
I had my hands lifted…and I was walking…and I was texting my friend who gave me my birthday book…and I was singing…and I was smiling…and I looked up at the almost- evening sliver of blue sky through the almost fully leafed out tree canopy and a powerful KNOWING came over me…”I will not be afraid.” I will not be afraid. I am more than a conqueror. “What, then, shall we say in response to these things? If God is for us, who can be against us?” Romans 8:31.
I don’t need to run into my hidey-hole…or scamper off into the bushes. I can walk out in the middle of the road singing a song with my hands lifted high! Do I look like a crazy-woman.You bet! But what would be crazy would be for me to NOT lift up my hands and sing a song of PRAISE…because I am glad. So glad.
Mrs. Woolcott the animal symbolism specialist goes on to say, “Rabbit medicine is also very positive, showing us how to attract love, abundance, health, and a warm, dry burrow. We are guided to move through fear, living by our own wits, receiving hidden teachings and intuitive messages, quick thinking, strengthening intuition, and paradox.”
Wait right there…what is paradox?
- A seemingly absurd or self-contradictory statement or proposition that when investigated or explained may prove to be well founded or true.
Mark Batterson explains in the book that I am reading The Circle Maker “Drawing prayer circles often looks like an exercise in foolishness. But that is faith. Faith is a willingness to look foolish. Noah looked foolish building a boat in the middle of the desert. The Israelite army looked foolish marching around Jericho blowing trumpets. A shepherd boy named David looked foolish charging a giant with a slingshot. The Magi looked foolish tracking a star to Timbuktu. Peter looked foolish getting out of a boat in the middle of the Sea of Galilee. And Jesus looked foolish wearing a crown of thorns. But the results speak for themselves.”
None of these people…or Moses…or Paul.. or Mother Theresa…or SO MANY OTHERS who have changed the course of history were content to stay put and wait around for what life would bring them. I have not done anything great…but if God puts a song in my heart and prompts me to raise my hands in praise to Him…that is the least I can do…even if I do look foolish! And that is just the start. Maybe God will give me lots of other ways to be able to look foolish for Him. But I have to be willing. I have to be ready. I have to want the ball…ask for the ball…catch it when it comes and RUN without fear because if He gives it to me to do then He will clear the way for me too.
“What do you do when the will of God doesn’t add up? What do you do when a dream doesn’t fit within the logical constraints of your left brain? What do you do with a promise that seems impossible? What do you do when faith seems foolish?”( Batterson)
That is the question, isn’t it? What do we do when we are afraid to do what we know God is calling us to do because we are afraid?
“Rabbit represents humility, being quiet and soft and not self-asserting. If you see Rabbit or in any way feel attracted to him, this may be a sign for you to wait for the forces of the universe to start moving again, to stop worrying and to get rid of your fears. Rabbit always indicates a need to re-evaluate the process you are undergoing, to rid yourself of any negative feelings or barriers, and to be more humble.”
What does it mean to be humble?… “not proud or haughty: not arrogant or assertive: reflecting, expressing, or offered in a spirit of deference or submission: ranking low in a hierarchy or scale : insignificant, unpretentious”
“Humble yourself in the sight of the Lord and he will lift you up.” James 4:10
When we do things God wants us to do, and know that we succeed because it is so that the world will see His Power and Love through us…we could not ask to be anymore important! To be used by God for good!!! That would lift me up to the top of the highest high. I want a purpose that is beyond myself. Everyday.
“Now listen, you who say, ‘Today or tomorrow we will go to this or that city, spend a year there, carry on business and make money.’ Why, you do not even know what will happen tomorrow. What is your life? You are a mist that appears for a little while and then vanishes. Instead, you ought to say, ‘If it is the Lord’s will, we will live and do this or that.’ As it is, you boast in your arrogant schemes. All such boasting is evil. If anyone, then, knows the good they ought to do and doesn’t do it, it is sin for them.” James 4:13-16
Our life is God’s anyway. All that we have is God’s anyway. You never see a hearse pulling a U-Haul anyway. Live for God…even if it doesn’t seem to make sense. Even if it seems foolish. Don’t hide away in fear…raise your hands in Faith. Every day. Now is a good time to start:) Let’s go and serve the Lord! Amen.